Monday, November 12, 2012

Things are never gonna stay the same
Every second is a change that I cannot bear to face
We started at the same place
But you're moving in the wrong direction now

Is there anything that I can do from here
To make you feel like you can stay
I'm chasing afterimages
And every one of them needs something I can't give

The words are soon forgotten
Pictures of us fade into the background
And all I wanna do is give in...

Sunday, November 11, 2012

A little worried..

I don't really know what to write...
But I feel like I need to, like I have to.

I don't know what life would be like without someone to love..
Or what it would be like without someone who loves you..
But I do know what life is like when you have someone you love,
And what it is like when that person does not love you back.

There are many kinds of happiness..
I read that somewhere, or maybe that's the conclusion that I came up with, but...
I agree with it... It is vague, and that is why it is true.

What kind of happiness do I want?
Peace of mind, maybe.
I think that would be a good type of "happiness" to have.
Or maybe contentment.

Something that would just let me not worry about what will happen in the future.
That said, there are also different types of people, who will find contentment or peace of mind, both even, in different circumstances.

I like my life now; I feel like I have everything I need and want.
I use the word "feel" because I think about what might happen in the future...
The fear of loss......
Insecurity and inadequacy..
What exactly determines the way a person looks at things, and is there any way to change that..?
What can be done about this, and what can I do to keep things the way they are..?